No Rules

Sa kahit anong laro kung walang "rules" lahat ng pandaraya papasok.
Kung makakaya mong manalo sa isang laro na hindi ka nandaya at alam mong ginawa mo lahat ng makakaya mo, siguro nga, maaari kang matawag na tunay na kampiyon.

NGUNIT...
Kung mananalo ka ng dahil sa nandaya ka lamang, maaaring panalo ka sa mata ng ibang tao pero sa loob mo, masasabi mo parin ba na tunay kang nagwagi?

Sa larong walang rules, mahirap manalo. Parang suntok sa buwan. Kadalasan ang natatalo ay yung mga tao na tunay na naghirap para makamit ang tagumpay. At kadalasan ang mga tao ganito, iyong laging nlaamang natatalo ay nandaraya na rin at kung minsan ay sumusuko na lamang.


With or Without Rules?

Aux Mode II

Never been sad. It's been a long time since I got this kind of feeling.
I just thought that ever thing is turning out good but I was wrong.
Its getting worst everyday.

I didn't lie but that person made me feel that way..
I didn't cheat but that person made me feel worst..
I did explain so that s/he would understand, but it seems that s/he didn't.
And now, words are better left unsaid, cause of words can kill then I am already dead.

Of all people...

-Searching my soul...-

Aux Mode

Kaya kong sagutin lahat ng tanong mo!
Pero bakit pa?
No need to answer those questions!
Kase nag-assume kana!

Aux mode..

It's My Birthday

Late post!
I thought it's going to be just an ordinary day for my birthday because I have a mid shift. However, when I got home at around 11:30pm moi and my family gave me this "surprise" mini celebration. They were still awake, waiting for me.. [touch] / [blush]

Well.. another year older with a younger face! nyahahaha

Thanks to everyone!!!

Happy Mother's Day!

Lahat tayo may mga nanay pero hindi lahat sa atin ay kapiling ang mga ito.
May mga iba't ibang rason kung bakit ang karamihan ay hindi kapiling ang kani-kanilang mga ina. Pero ano man ang mga rason na ito, isa lamang ang alam ko, walang ina ang hindi naiisip ang kani-kanilang mga anak.

Para sa lahat ng anak, mahalin at igalang natin ang ating mga ina, dahil kung hindi dahil sa knila wala tayo sa ating kinatatayuan ngayon.
Ang pagmamahal ng isang ina ay hinding hindi mapapantayan ng kahit na anong kayamanan sa mundo.

May isang nanay rin akong gustong pasalamatan na kahit hindi niya ako tunay na anak ay itinurin niya akong higit pa sa totoo niyang anak. Salamat sa pag gabay mo sa akin sa mga bagay bagay at kahit hindi na tayo nagkakausap [heart to heart talk] o nagkikita, minsan naman ay nagkakatext pa rin tayo ay gusto kong sabihin na itinuturing kita bilang pangalawa kong ina. Happy Mother's Day mommy tita..

At para sa nag-iisa kong minamahal na ina, maramimg maraming salamat sa pagbibigay sa amin ng pagmamahal na hindi mapapantayan ng kahit anong kayamanan. Hindi man kami perpektong anak, at laging ngkakamali o makakagawa ng mga bagay na ikakasama ng loob mo, lagi mo sanang tatandaan na ng-iisa ka lng sa buhay namin! Happy Mother's Day MOM!!!

Sigh

I have a lot of things running inside my head and I'm having a hard time dealing with them. It seems that everything changes so fast.

-One thing I really know is that nothing is really permanent.-
-Not so...-

Last Day of Work

Its been a pleasure working with them and i must admit, i'm going to miss these rare people, the way we work, talk, laugh, eat and do stuffs together. I really don't have plans of leaving my work, cause i really enjoy it. Not until we transferred to Net Quad office. Everything changed.

To All My Friends:
I don't consider you only as officemates but all of you are my friends, my family and with you guys it seems that im at home. I would like to give names so that you would know how much I treasure you but I won't, because I know that deep inside your hearts, you know who you are, all of you.
I just want to thank you all for being so nice to me. Guiding me in my every step, letting me learn from my own mistakes and most of all, thank you for all the support, for loving me and treating me as a person. I will surely miss all of you.

To those who don't like me from the start:
I know that ever since you really don't like me and my friends. I want you to know that you really need to work on your attitude, as in very very hard, because you were one of OUR few reasons why we resigned. And by the way, I am NOT TERMINATED, I RESIGNED and you are my ONLY reason! AS I was saying, you don't need to say your sorry for every "paninira" that you made, to me and to my friends, because you are already forgiven [lets hope that they will forgive you too]. I don't want to sound bitter but you really need to change!
And I would also like to include you in my THANK YOU list. For making me strong, telling every boss how inefficient I am. But I know and everybody knows that you are
wrong! It only shows what kind of person you are. Again, Goodluck in your life [if you have one].

-"Heavy heart", leaving my friends in the hands of someone who doesn't know their worth. Goodluck Everyone.-

Weird

See that weird image? Well, the picture it self is not the real topic here. Its about this feeling that I have, I spoke to these group of friends that I have, friends that are very dear to me. And It's kinda weird that suddenly I just felt that I want to study AGAIN. Not that I didn't finished my study but to take another course in college!
Ha-ha, funny but I really want to learn more. Now, the question is how? I'll be thinking about that...

In My Dreams

There was a time some time ago
When every sunrise meant a sunny day, oh a sunny day
But now when the morning light shines in
It only disturbs the dreamland where I lay, oh where I lay
I used to thank the lord when Id wake
For life and love and the golden sky above me
But now I pray the stars will go on shinin, you see in my dreams you love me

Daybreak is a joyful time
Just listen to the songbird harmonies, oh the harmonies
But I wish the dawn would never come
I wish there was silence in the trees, oh the trees
If only I could stay asleep, at least I could pretend youre thinkin of me
cause nighttime is the one time I am happy, you see in my dreams

Chorus:
We climb and climb and at the top we fly
Let the world go on below us, we are lost in time
And I dont know really what it means
All I know is that you love me, in my dreams

(solo)

I keep hopin one day Ill awaken, and somehow shell be lying by my side
And as I wonder if the dawn is really breakin
She touches me and suddenly Im alive

Tough Day...

It was a tough day I can say...
I can't think of the right words to describe how I feel. But one thing I know, its not good. It's terrible! If I could just skip the "thinking" thing, it would be a big help. I don't want to be the "old" me again, afraid to express how she feels, afraid to trust, afraid to be betrayed, afraid to show the real person inside her. I thought I was over that stage already, but why am I feeling this again? I feel that no one is listening, no one to share my feelings.. It's happening again. And just like before, I have no control of my emotions.

HARD!

Flirt

Bakit ba ang dami-daming flirt sa mundo? Hindi ba sila makahanap ng sarili nilang partner? Usually, low class people ang nakikipag-flirt. Walang makausap na matino, walang mahanap na tao na magiging seryoso sa kanila. Kaya sila nakikipag-flirt.

Hindi ba sila naniniwala sa KARMA?

Madami akong kilalang ganyan... The NERVE!
And I PITY them! Insecured Bitch!

Bride, Bride, Bride, Groom, Groom, Groom..

I was browsing my friendster, looking for pictures just to make my self busy. It's kinda boring, spending the rest of the day inside my room and just watching movie [not to mention that I'm watching my favorite TV Series]. While browsing my friendster, I saw this pictures of my high school and college friends. Wearing their gown and tuxedo. Whoah! They're taking life seriously, I can say. It seems that their are blessed with not just partners but their better half, happy and happy?

When I was a child, I also dreamt of having one of those, pretty gown, church, reception and of course my Mr. Right, waiting for me at the Altar. Wishing that the person whose waiting for me at the end of the line will be the same person who will be holding my hand when we grow old. But if your going to ask me now, if I want to be married? Well, I tell you honestly, I can't picture my self getting married at all! ha-ha-ha. Oh well, the topic is not about me, its about them...

Yes! It's about those young couples, not to mention that they are my friends! Isn't it too early to get serious with life? I mean THAT serious? It's not that I'm not but taking a bigger picture is a little bit risky! Well, its their life not mine. haha

-Browse mode.. walang magawa [literal na walang magawa] /swt-

Chicken Pox

OMG! I'm sick! I have chicken pox! /sob.
Itchi-itchi, i mean its super itchi!

Day One:
I went to our family pedia to have myself checked. And its confirmed, I have chicken pox. Sad but true. I don't have much choice but to accept the itchinesssssss /sob again. My doctor advised me to rest for TWO BORING WEEKS! Would you believe? Two weeks of staying inside my room ALONE is not a good idea at all. I can't go to work and I can't go out! Well, its not gonna pop up all over my body [the doctor said that] because I had a vaccine, way way back @-). I might get a FEW spots but the itchiness is terrible and horrible.

Day Two:
I woke up around 930am just to eat and sleep again! Well, i took my medicine to lessen the itchi-itchi part. Then I watched "charmed" and watch and watch.. *sigh* after eating and watching with a little nap too.. It's kinda boring don't you think so. The itchi-itchi is a little tolerable now BUT the spots I have in my face is kinda alarming! I could connect the dots now! EWWWWWWWWWW if I'm ugly before I can say I'm a MONSTER now! For crying out loud! HUHU

I don't know how, what or why am I feeling this way. *sigh* I just hate it when I think or feel something like this! It's as if I could blow the entire place with me having this kind of emotion! hayzzzzz

Day Three???
To be cont...

Happy!

Wala lng. masaya lng ako.

Different Point Of View...

It's kinda hard to deal with things you know that your not into but you want to make it work. Sometimes you just want to let it go but you can't. To feel something as different as this is very very hard, a feeling that any moment it will just stop! Afraid that the very reason why you are fighting will suddenly open his hands and let go. Again, I'm trying to think positive, but can't deny the fact that no one can make me believe in forever. Everything has a beginning and an end, it starts and it stops. Everyone is hoping to have someone who will stay beside them until their hair turned gray. And me? I'm hoping, I'm wishing, and I'm praying that if this is all a dream, please don't wake me up, not yet, not now. 'Cause I'm tired of being sad and after a few happiness, sadness is coming again?

I know there is something wrong, hard to explain and difficult to understand. I just can't figure it out, but soon, I'll have the answers.

I'm not a quitter, I don't usually quit, I fight for what I believe is right. But I know when to stop. [ work? :-< ]